Been a long time between posts...

Well in case you were wondering, yes I know it's been a long time since I posted here... I haven't felt the need to think out loud for a little while so I count that as a good thing!!!

I had a unusual, unexpected and highly uncomfortable experience this evening which I kinda need to vocalise, I just don't know how so I'll pour it out here and see where it goes...

As a gamer, I spend a lot of time online, talking to people, organising activities and talking to 'virtual' friends. Tonight, I was on the receiving end as my 'someone special' was also doing the same - all well and good - we talked on skype as we did our gaming thing but then something strange happened...

She went off to talk to someone and started laughing and having fun and I started to feel... Unimportant, invisible, lonely and for some reason jealous. And I hate that!!!

It's incredibly silly but I have come to the conclusion that I hate sharing. I mean it's the same as it was while I was visiting in Norway, my love played on her shiny new machine (as I told her to as I wanted her to smile and have fun) but as a result I felt alone. I wrote that off as me being an idiot but it happened again tonight. Can't explain why it happens coz I don't do jealousy, never have, until now...

Just wish I understood why :/